A new battle

she was surrounded by people only to find herself alone and lost deep in her thoughts.
no matter what she does to escape her thoughts nothing really works.
she tries to be around people and keep herself busy as much as she can.
but at the end of the day she ends up all alone with her thoughts.
they literally are destroying every and each part of her.

"you don't know how it feels to be your own best friend."she said.
she cried till her eyes went dry.
whats even worse is that she don't really know whats making her 'that sad'.
she doesn't even know whether she's sad or angry or somewhere in between.
by that time the silence was louder than ever.
she felt sick to her stomach.

its just like you're disconnecting from your world only to find yourself in a different world of yours.
its more like a dream.
even though she's trying to help people and be there for everyone as much as possible she cant even help herself.

sad isn't it?

we lose the people we love the most every day one by one.
you just get to a point where you get used to losing people.
"who's next?"she said.

she don't even want to know the answer to that cause it scares her to death.
its a constant battle for her to wake up and get off bed everyday to face the world.

"every day is like a new window with its own sun rises and sunsets."she said

eventually you'll learn from it all and most of the time it'll make you feel weak but at the end it'll only make you stronger than ever.