another year

her birthday was coming up..
everyone is asking her about what she wants on her birthday
all she says is " I'll think about it or I don't know"
but all she wanted for her birthday is..
to be happy.
to be loved.
to be wanted.
to be appreciated.
to be good enough.

"is that too much to ask for?"she said.

the fact that her birthday is coming up made her sad.
it made her sad because another birthday means
another year of pain
another year of sadness
another year of emptiness
another year of depression
another year of disappointments

"why can't everything be good for once?"she said as she was watching her whole life falling apart helplessly.