Death

Thinking about death makes her feel terrified.
"i would rather die than having to bear another death of a loved one."she said.
she thought of what she would leave behind after her death
and what people will say,think or do..

she wants to leave this world known as the happy , crazy ,wild girl who loves to joke around and just have a laugh.
the girl who stood by everyone when they needed someone to comfort them and tell the everything is going to be alright.
the girl who stayed strong when she had all the right to break down but still chose to stand still.
the girl who never gave up hope on anyone or anything without a fight.

she don't want to be remembered as the "sad and depressed" girl who had a horrible life.
unfortunately in our society no one really cares about how sad or depressed you are
they'll just think that you're seeking for attention
all they want is something or someone to talk about.
at the end it's all about what you leave for everyone and anyone..

she also thought of her friends and family and how will their life be without her.
"they'll be just fine.eventually,they'll just forget me i'll be a memory to them."she said.
on the other hand she really don't want to die alone.
but as they say "we come alone and die alone."